Another stage in My Journey...

Last week I wrote that I was going into hospital for another Avastin treatment. Well I did go into hospital but not for Avastin. My cancer has not been responding to treatment, I have a tumour partially blocking my bowel or intestine (as well as other parts)and it has now come to whats known as palliative care.

This was all definitely not on my schedule - but here it is and now I get to be with all of this.

It is my intention that the time I have, however long it is, is a time of joy and celebration for all. I am blessed with so many people in my life since coming here 4 years ago and present to how much difference I have made. But its not about me - all that I can bring is my authentic self and leave you with a legacy that I know you will carry forward. The world is in change and we can all do our bit - the world is abundant and once ego gets out of the way there is an abundant life for all. This I do know. I struggled through life as a child and someway as an adult as well - and I want to see an end to suffering for all.

So let me share with you what is happening - the house is full of flowers and light, we started to decorate for Christmas yesterday (skip Thanksgiving and straight into the Chrissy decos (as we say in Aus!) The house looks great there is still some to go.

My Angels and I decided to bring Christmas forward so they got to play with decorations, grandbabies, dogs and being 5 years old. There was lunch and music and joy! A glorious day! The house looks great - and there is still a little bit more to go to complete it. (Photos will come)

My son Steve is coming from Aus for a coupla weeks on Monday - I am so thrilled to see him and my cousin Elizabeth is coming from London on Friday. I am so moved and thrilled that they are coming. Already I am planning what we will eat - takes my mind of the clear broths that is my staple diet now.

So what is happening with me health wise? My mind is as fertile as ever, though I do get tired. My body is very weak and I can notice signs of it shutting down - I have meditation practices which help me breathe more easily.I have a Hospice Nurse come in a couple of weeks who does the BP etc, tells me about the different drugs to help with pain but most importantly gives me lots of loving as only nurses can.

This week I am starting Buddhist practices with a Buddhist Lama who is well read and studied in the process of death and dying. There is great comfort in being prepared for death, so there is no fear but embracing and welcoming it as the next life. We only fear that which we dont know about.

And now today, it looks like its the first day of Winter (its been late this year for us in Colorado). It looks beautiful outside, and misty with at real English Moor look!

And now thats it for this week - if you would like to come around the weekend of Thanksgiving there will be food (as well as chicken broth!)bring something if you would like to - but PLEASE email Maureen (Social Secretary)on suzi.granger@gmail.com or call Web (Chief Event Planner) on 303 447 4718

See you soon
and lots of love
Suuz xoxoxoxo